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This morning I woke up with an odd pang of rejection. And then I remembered. That's exactly how the Devil would want me to feel. Rejected, hopeless, unable to move on, unable to achieve what God wants me to achieve. That's why I don't want to give in. I refuse to. 'Cause it's hindering my progress with God. And this fact is inevitable, God has better plans. Plans that are just not our plans. Plans that we might just not understand. so yeah, I'm staying strong, and so should you. Trust Him, He definitely never fails. ;)

"You can't be connected with God until you're at peace with who you are. If you're still upset that God gave you this body or this life or this family or these circumstances, you will never be able to connect with God in a healthy, thriving, sustainable sort of way. You'll be at odds with your maker. And if you can't come to terms with who you are and the life you've been given, you'll never be able to accept others and how they were made and the lives they've been given. And until you're at peace with God and those around you, you will continue to struggle with your role on the planet, your part to play in the ongoing creation of the universe. You will continue to struggle and resist and fail to connect. " - Rob Bell , on exploring the endless connections between sexuality and spirituality.

heheh, i'm back. And I'm planning on keeping this blog around. Hopefully I update regularly now. Anyways, just a post-hiatus poem for you. ;) Coming to like a person can be a beautiful thing We might forget life as we know it Concentrating solely on the person's everything. It might seem unhealthy It might seem foolish But the feelings may be difficult to control Difficult to dismiss. That's why wisdom from God is essential To discern the valid and invalid reasons To take the proper steps And to take care not to be misguided. Yet, one often feels disappointed When rejection presents itself twice When things just don't work out And unanswered, goes the heart's cries But take heart my fellow friend For God has his will and plans 'He knows what's best for us', A phrase commonly uttered But indeed how true it is, For it is, after all, the God who formed the heavens and the Earth. In memory of the blues. ;)

i decided to somehow revive this blog which has been put on hold for one reason. Not many people will read this unless i promote it on FB again, which i'm not gonna do for the mean time so that i can write some thoughts down. without having to think so much about who's gonna read it. what i'm doing, i'm contradicting myself. anyway, it just dawned on me that, THIS IS IT. It IS SPM Year. sigh... i'm lucky somehow having Pn. Grace as my chem teacher simply because her teaching style pushes lazy people like me. YAY! now, it just occurred to me, people do silly things for the sake of 'love'. as i read some blogs, i simply cannot imagine myself being like that. NO WAY. but oh well, i'm happy that this year, i'm definitely more secure in God. GO GOD! just wanted to say that ;) and it really annoys me to have me 450D out of use. IT. IS. SO. IRRITATING. just when I was practicing my photog skills and getting better, it crashes. and it hasn't been sent fo...

it has been 3/4 months since i last updated, and therefore for now, I AM MOVING TO TUMBLR! when i find the time and effort to revive this, I'll let y'all know thru facebook. i still love the fact that i can change font colours here on bs, but still tumblr takes less effort. SORRY PEOPLE. btw, here's the link, josiechay's tumblr thanks for everything ;)

Montreaux. a month represents probably how long I once again deserted this blog for. and in 5 days, it'll be Merdeka. Time seriously flies. I must apologise to those who actually cared to follow up on my blog, because times were busy, and they still are. I marvel at myself though, at the many ways I manage to somehow waste time. jump! reach! I currently do not visit Facebook for 5 days a week, but I've gotten into the groove of doing covers. haha..you people are probably wondering, dunno when only she will actually post it up. But yea, I'm almost good to go. ;) I just find my singing terrible in comparison to those other people who do covers. Thats why it took me so long. Oh well. the kid and ms. sim are so cute. a random one: I.AM.going.to.make.sure.nextyear's.schoolmag.is.great.(p.s.with a clearer direction than this year) where's our tenth one? haha. a random two: there is always reason to laugh in 4sc2. Though some teachers, *cough* and the demerit/merit sys...

launching of ASEAN. so, i think i've left this blog unattended for quiet some time hehe. right up till now, life has been great, albeit more dramatic. But hey, what's life without a lil fun and drama? take for example, how rm50 mysteriously disappeared from my plastic cover sheet. I thought of starting with the bad for a change. ;D yeah, probably now, I can still smile and emoticon up this post, but yesterday was like... mann, terrible. After spending like what, 3 periods finding for the money (and it's the munny collected from the persatuan photosT.T), I had to come back to my class teacher unfairly saying that my team did not do our job properly for pestaria. I had no emotions at that time, because I felt like killing myself for losing the money (haha, more on this later). Darsha, Gogi, were like so super the pissed off. WE DID OUR JOB LAH. aiyooo.. so I was holding a knife at that time(baru claimed it back from teng2), and I felt like hacking at something, which I did- ...