Cornerstone

Hey hey first post in 2015!

Haha, didn't think this little blog would last till such modern times but hey, important histories will never fade *wink*. 

Never in my wildest imaginations would I have thought that Jocelyn Chay would come to endure so many life-changing circumstances (both for better and for worse). But I did anyway, and I survived. 

And time and again I see the amazing work of God, His grip tight as ever. 

The past year has truly been an emotional whirlwind, and in every sense of the word. Even I was amazed by the steady build-up of emotions and issues. I have had my share of regrets, which sometimes I am tempted to think, outweigh the good. But that isn't true, it was my own doing. I was the one that allowed my consciousness to sink. I was the one that threw the life jacket. I was the one that tied weights to my legs in a turbulent ocean. I chose to give up instead of hold on and I really wish I could turn back time; but time is a one way ticket. The only thing I can look forward to is time being my one way ticket to heaven. 

I have never sunken so low in my life before, but I guess you need to hit rock bottom before you climb your way up aye. Despite all these, I am still grateful. 

I'm so grateful that Jesus came to save sinners like me and that I don't need to try picking up the pieces or fixing the faulty parts. I can just come as I am, broken and needy, and His arms will always be open. He has and always will know me, and that is all that matters. 

That my friend, is the beauty of it all. The thing that keeps me going. My reason to live. 

So I guess I ended up preaching, but hey, this joy is different. It's something you cannot contain, and I am so so so thankful for that.

*lub*