josiechay's

*Disclaimer: I apologize for my incoherence in advance.  As much as I would like to go all power lady and say this, I find it so hard to. Well its not that I'm not valued, it's just that I'm sort of chasing pavements.  Yes, I'm trying to do it over the right way and just be friends but somehow, I find myself trying to hold on to whatever's left. And it is truly a horrible mentality.  But this happens in those weak moments. Which goes to show how I need to always be on my guard. Sometimes I wonder, why can't I be like all the other people who move on so quickly. Why is it that I've invested so much heart into this. And why have I not been able to fully let go of all the lingering emotions after soooo long.  It only makes me wonder if there could have been a future.  But now that I'm adventuring to another land, I've just got to be patient and see where He leads me. Ah, the future always seems more enticing bu

I guess I have come to learn that in life, its best to just unplug yourself from your source of worry or stress. It may not be the easiest thing to do, but granted if you try, bit by bit you will succeed. I guess for me its in the way I delete messages / photos in order not to tempt myself into looking back. I try not to get too attached to things that I'm trying to keep a distance from (wait what?) yeah.. haha I try to tell myself well, if I were to get the chance to re-do this, I'll do it right.