josiechay's

It's strangely comforting to see you looking all happy on social media with your girl. No, this post isn't gonna be a rant. Truly. Strangely enough, when I see you with your girl, I feel relieved. And I'm genuinely happy for you. I'm happy that finally, you don't need to hide anything. You don't need to worry about scrutiny, secrets and meeting other people's expectations. I'm happy that you've found someone you can be exactly who you are with. I'm happy you can bring her to meet your family and you can bring her to church. That's exactly how it should have been from the start and I'm glad this is all working out for you now. All I wanted was for you to be happy and I knew, being around me, that wasn't always the case. So I'm glad you've found your peace in this phase of life. Buddy, I wish you well and I will always be your guardian angel/fairy godmother when you need help. :) xx

I'll be completely honest, coming home this summer wasn't something I was particularly excited about as I've come to realise, it was just what I needed. 1.  The saying "you don't know what you're missing till it's gone" is so true but I would like to add a little twist to that statement. You don't know what you're missing till it's gone from your life but appears back again.  If I were to be completely honest (once again) I would say that I didn't really miss the people back home with an aching heart. I was always more of a friend person than a family person anyway. So when I came home and saw my parents in the flesh, I looked at them and thought to myself, what a bad child I was. I could certainly do better. In the moments that I spent with them hearing them out in coffeeshops or in their car, I came to my senses - I was such a fool for not appreciating them enough. I was so blinded by my own arrogant nature that I failed to respec

So it occurred to me in the shower that these past few weeks, I have been too busy caring about myself to care about other people. And that is just bad. Some say I'm a social butterfly, and I used to think that maybe that's a gift or something but as of late, I think that I may have been exploiting this very "gift". My late night shower has really gotten me questioning my motives in life and my motives in ministry. I've been blessed to be able to start serving in a church program here in the States and honestly it has been really good. For me that is. Now I think that I have to really "close the bible" as mentioned in a SheReadsTruth devotional, and really get out there and start loving and living out the Word. It has been a goal of sorts for myself this year to love genuinely, listen actively and give a 100% and more, every time I'm with a friend. Some days I feel like my eyes are opened and I see the needs everywhere waiting to be fulfilled. O