Reality, how unhappy.

Separation
For total abandonment
Sadness
For reality.

Being yearned for
And yearning another
Did it always have to end badly?
Was there ever mutual happiness?

We tell each other
Dream lovely things
Think happy thoughts.
In the end it doesn't work does it?

We revisit Memories
We take a walk in Square One
We replay the hurts
We can't bear the thought of forgetting.

So where does it all lead?
When does it all end?
How many sleepless nights will pass?
How many personal pity parties will we attend? 

Meaningless, she sighed
Hopeless, he complained
What is my life, she questioned
Such deep pain, he whispered. 

Some questions were never meant to be answered.
Some feelings were never meant to be reciprocated.

That's the sad reality
Nothing can be done to change it. 


Comments

  1. leavaniaFebruary 8, 2013 at 1:45 PM

    Problem kan. Hang in there buddy. If this is what I think it is, one day, this will be looked into by someone very important. Along with it will come the payoff for being patient and rational. :) lub you! <3

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