Thoughts concealed


nooo..
why do troubles have to come after my best ever VBS.{==}
aaargh..
Is it God's way of discipline?
I don't know.
Maybe it is.
Gosh.
God grant me strength and wisdom to endure these trials.

{FinalFantasy piano soundtrack comes in}

I mean why do some people grow up too fast.
It's like.. you should just slow down and enjoy your childhood while you still have it.
don't grow up too fast.
don't try to be mature when you aren't.
be age appropriate
I'm not saying you can't be wise for your age.
+
well, 
sometimes getting everything that you want
can cause bad things to happen
who knows,
you may have just torn a friendship with your selfish needs
who knows,
you may have broke a relationship that has been long yearned for.
hmm...
think of others sometimes
not just yourself.
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haiz..
does she continue on like this?
will she just remain a friend?
forever?
questions.
mean a thousand things.
**
she eagerly helps out
so your relationship may succeed.
do you even see the truth?
the main reason she does it?

maybe being good friends will be just the right thing
not any further than that.

nonetheless..
she trusts in God.
That he may guide her and grant her solutions
to solve the daily mysteries and miseries that
are the web of life.

how bout you?
realize,
and appreciate all she has done.
and at least,
be a friend in return.
a good friend in return.

understand,
the hurt 
knowing she can't have you
no matter how long she has longed to.

nonetheless..
She hopes the friendship ties will last
FOREVER 

even if love does not appear
I await it.



{Tifa's Theme by Nubuo Uematsu comes on}

haha..don't worry
just some personal ponderings..


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